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Managing through the storm..

Having passed through the doors of higher education for one year longer than that cult hero Van Wilder I often wonder what I have learnt from all my time in academia.

One recurring theme that keeps coming back to me is the importance of taking time to sit back each week and get some head space. Whether this is five minutes on a bus, in a coffee shop or on a Sunday night before a night shift drinking tea awaiting a “Supermoon” as an excuse to stay awake.

This is the first time in quite some time that I have sat down and penned my thoughts. If honest I am now bored with the complete lack of accountability and leadership I see in government.

“While Rome burns they feast drunken and scoff at the flames”. I have no idea if that is a quote or not but it describes what I see at present. In three areas I see such complete lack of leadership. At Stormont it is like a circus, I have no idea who is in charge of Health and Education in this country let alone if that will be the same person tomorrow. At Westminister they have decreased their hours, increased their expenses and increased their pay. Whilst at the same time cutting everyone else’s in sight. In Europe they are merely sitting making fences while people are migrating from chaos and swimming for their lives as refugees.

In each of these three areas I am concerned as I don’t see anyone who actually is in charge and is in touch with the common man. The inequalities of rich and poor I fear are growing larger and with it will come more problems.

So the written’s are done!

It would appear that this time next year all being well that I will have the results of my written finals. The big question is where will I be after that. At the minute that is the debate that I am beginning to try to work out. I am thinking two schools of thought. One of these is to head across the Irish Sea and the other is too stay. This has been one of those debates that has ensued with me since I was 17 and when I hit 32 I have no idea what I will decide.

To me the last two decisions have been done through a very structured system and they have both been the right decision. How can I say that? You might ask and the answer would be simply because I know that they were.

So apart from debating where I am going over the last while I have also spent some time thinking about where I have come from. It often makes me laugh when I think back to those times at school, where I spent time in the local bakery or looking back to what I actually was like at 17.

Having the opportunity to do medicine is a privilege and for each of us who have had an opportunity to peel off the veneer and look at humanity at its most vulnerable point, I can safely say that I have not been appreciative enough of the chances that I have been given.

One other thing that I have learnt is that people are complex creatures and they can be hard work. Thankfully others aren’t and they make the whole world a bit more hospitable.

Another thing that I have been trying to get to terms with is actually spending time to hit the breaks on life, and have some down time, where I am not running round like a blue arse fly trying to catch up with everyone, or chasing after something. Having had a bout of some vomiting bug, about two weeks ago, and having a romantic liason with a toilet bowl does make you think about the finer things in life. Such as just being able to have some free time to yourself and not having to sit in and watch daytime tv!

Writings of a Best Man!

Last weekend I was privileged to be given the opportunity in life to be the Best Man of an old friend who is an absolute legend.

Now when your asked to be best man you initially think, “Ok! Thanks”. Then you think so why did you choose me!

So initially your focus is on yourself and working out that you have to speak in a room full of people, including a few that you know. Then you sit down and begin to think about what you should write. So out pores a collection of random stories, a library of incidents from over the years flows through your brain. Some rude, some crude, some stupid and most only a handful of people would actually find amusing.

Then you begin over a period of months to subtly enquire what stories don’t you know. Many people have different spheres of friends and each sphere has unique stories and stories that overlap.

A Best Man needs to find those stories which the collective spheres find funny but yet makes each sphere feel at ease with what is being said.

A Best Mans speech needs humour and for the groom to feel relaxed with what is told. It is not a character assassination. After all at the end of the day he should still be one of your best mates.

The speech should also convey to the Brides family that their daughter has made the correct choice and they all need to be put at ease.

I was quite lucky last weekend as there were no stories of hookers, drugs, drunken disorderly behaviour that I could actually tell. Thankfully he is a top bloke.

I hope that in using the, “Would the Grooms mother appreciate this?”, approach that I didn’t stray over the line.

The other thing I hope is that any Best Mans speech needs to do the Groom justice.

Arrogance, perspective and benchmarking!

Being back as a student and being in my fourth decade does have some brilliant advantages as well as some disadvantages.

One of the true advantages is the change in your own perspective that being a student brings. Having worked for 4-5 years prior to re-entering college meant that I had some exposure to the working world. The student life may be another planet but I believe it is a much leveller playing field and some people may see it like being retired.

This may sound a bit odd but honestly it is. Think about it, we spend so much of our social time talking about work and benchmarking ourselves against each other that we sometimes forget the art of conversation.

When I meet with some of the, “tax contributing non sponging”, it becomes apparent that the conversation has a tendency to evolve around the benchmark. I will admit that I am more than guilty of this and even now I do engage in it. However I am also slowly getting bored of keeping up with the Jones’s and making sure that I have ticked those social and career conversation boxes that make me apparently a better person.

I am not foolish to think that nature doesn’t depend on survival of the fittest but people telling me about how much they have spent, how wonderful they are, what pay scale they are on and how shit someone is in comparison to them, is really beginning to fatigue me.

Compare this to the typical student conversation. What are you doing at the minute? Any summer plans? Pass the exams? Have you been working? Any good new music?

Yes I know all student conversations aren’t like the above but they do have a tendency not to benchmark or compare sizes.

The importance of being inspired!

Well it has been a long time since I have taken time out of the roller coater that is life to pen a few thoughts. One of the themes that has emerged in my life of late is the constant question of what do you plan to do when you qualify. Well the answer is quite simple I don’t know. Now goodbye and, “cheers for all the fish”.

On a more serious note last week I had this conversation again with an orthopedic surgeon and basically the conversation came down to two things:

1) I was trying to keep an open mind as I had thoroughly enjoyed some placements such as surgery and others that I hadn’t enjoyed may have been because they lacked structure.

2) Did I enjoy some placements more than others because the teacher actually took an interest and enthused us all?

The second point is the point that I personally think is what it comes down to. Some people can just teach and others could bore the comatosed out of bed. In reading a book by Malcolm Gladwell recently this issue is also highlighted about how some teachers can get pupils to out perform their peers and other teachers can actually be detrimental to your learning. His point was that cumulative crap teaching could leave a pupil with a large chasm of knowledge after a few years.

I have had loads of educational contact time over the years and I have certainly noticed that some people are gifted, and others may as well not take on such roles as they are disadvantaging the next generation.

In my opinion a good teacher leaves a lasting effect that is invaluable. They have an effect that even if they were teaching you the bar codes on bags of peas it would appear interesting. They also tend to draw people into their field, and sometimes it can be an area of a subject you had never considered as a career.

Looking back at school I had a few legends who taught me so much so that even now I can still remember stuff like, Moles, the Classification System in Biology and  Dulce et Decorum. They also made me interested in what they were teaching so much that I went home and spent time trying to get to grips with what they had said. In short they were inspiring.

Now the other crowd, “of mystical creatures who can engage smart people for an hour, and when you get home you wonder what was that about”, how do we get them out of teaching. Yes that is right I think that some of the educationalists are crap at teaching. Now how do we get those that can’t teach away from pupils who are initially receptive to new subjects. I suppose the answer is feedback but that assumes that it is actually read and taken seriously.

One example that I wish to finish on is a friend who used to sit beside me during my initial degree, and during the most boring hours of life that we wouldn’t get back. While some prat talked about some really important life changing topic such as, the use of magnesium sterate and its importance so that powder can flow down a hopper without static, he would mutter, “We are living the dream”. He was right we probably were dreaming as we certainly weren’t enthused.

Somehow he did get enthused by another subject!

An essay that made me think:

Sometimes I wonder about the merits of war and the intentions of nations. Do they really have the best intentions of common man at heart when they begin a conflict or is it merely a game of chess for the benefit of a failing economy. The reason why I wonder this is probably quite poignant given the current escalation of madness in Korea! I think big Winston sums up the madness quite well in his essay below written in 1937.

MANKIND IS CONFRONTED BY ONE SUPREME TASK

By Winston S. Churchill. New of the World, 14 November 1937Copyright Mr. Winston S. Churchil.

In an earlier article I have tried to outline some of the more formidable scientific powers which now rest in the hands of man, or are about to be seized by him. Clearly, if things go on as they are, the human race is about to be subjected to processes of change more rapid and more fundamental than anything that has occurred in all history. In the next fifty years mankind will make greater progress in mastering and applying natural forces than in the last million years or more. That is a fearsome thought. And the first question we must ask ourselves is, ‘Are we fit for it? Are we worthy of all these exalted responsibilities? Can we bear this tremendous strain?’

Hitherto everyone has eagerly welcomed scientific discovery. We see the mass of the nation in the enjoyment of so many comforts and facilities of which the rich and powerful never dreamed a hundred years ago. We travel with incredible speed. Already we grumble if aeroplanes only go at 120 miles an hour. We speak to each other across dark distances by waves in the ether. Millions of people own and enjoy motor-cars and motor-bicycles. The poor man in his cottage can hear each night concerts or news from every capital in Europe. The cinema not only presents the millions with lively amusement, but also revives the pageant of the past and portrays the finest stories the world has ever told.

Behind these incidents, which could be multiplied indefinitely, lie grand, marvellous discoveries like chloroform and antiseptics,and all the other improved methods of preserving health and curing disease. Naturally, we have sat grateful to science for these inestimable gifts, which increase the pleasures and reduce the pains of human existence.

But science does not only concern itself with beneficent discoveries. The whole apparatus of scientific slaughter on a vast scale is being perfected and expanded day and night. The wars of the future will involve whole nations. Men and women, young and old, all will be under the flail. Not only shells and bombs will fall upon our heads, but poison gas will burn and stifle us. Even pestilence may be spread far and wide, and met by preventive inoculation. A hideous kind of warfare may be waged by scientists commanding armies of innumerable microbes whichwill fight for and against us in the battlefield of our own unhappy bodies.

When we reflect upon these shocking possibilities we may not feel so proud and happy about all that science has done and is going to do in the lifetime of most of those who will read this page. The achievements of science in the nineteenth and twentieth centuries were not necessary to the happiness, virtue or glory of mankind. Endless possibilities of moral and mental improvement were open to us without any of the blessings or conveniences which we now enjoy. It is above all essential that the man and woman of today should realize upon how much lower a plane science stands than that of manners and morals. It is far more important, for instance, to speak the truth one self than to possess the most wonderful wireless set. It is much better to be kind and merciful than to whirl about in our fastest motorcars. It is far more splendid to keep one’s word and be considerate towards other people than to be able to fly. Justice ranks far above steam. An upright, fearless judge renders a more exalted service than the cleverest inventor. Freedom is worth far more than electricity. The rights of the individual, a happy home and family, such as have existed even under hard, bleak conditions, are incomparably more precious than any amount of wonderful organization.

In so far as we can have both these sets of alternatives which I have contrasted, let us rejoice; but we shall fall indeed on evil days if we are forced to lose the old for the sake of the new. All this terrific material progress is really only valuable in so far as it liberates the innate goodness of the human heart. It would be not a blessing but a curse if it rolled forward uncontrolled by the moral principles of simple decent men and women. It can never be our salvation. It may be our doom.

Take this wonderful conquest of the air. Men able to fly! The dream of thousands of years realized! The magic carpet of the Arabian Nights in full activity at reasonable prices. We are forced to ask this question – Will the aeroplane end war, or will it end civilization? Are we the children of a glorious epoch advancing into the fullness of our inheritance, or are we simply a gang of squalid mischievous urchins who have got hold of firearms and raided the local laboratory for some tubes of typhus bacilli! Are we moving forward into a paradise of earthly delights where there will be enough for all, where the load of carking care about the means of existence – food, shelter, and clothing – will be lifted from the whole human race; or are we simply plunging into a senseless hell where all the treasures and joys of ordinary life will be calcined?

Broadly speaking, this is the supreme issue which now confronts us. We ought to think about it. Is it our power to decide? In my browner hours I sometimes doubt it. But then, one must always hope; for there is nothing so useless and so cowardly as despair.One must always try. It may not be in our power to decide the immediate future of the world, but it is our right and duty to choose – and to choose well.

Clearly we are beset by strange, unexampled hazards. I recur to this potent aeroplane from which will fall either blessings or cursings, glory or shame. In twenty years if there is no war,perhaps sooner, mankind will have found a way to control and destroy the raiding aeroplane. The ground will be stronger than the air. States will no longer quake at the whirring of these anarchist engines. We shall sleep as safely in our beds as our grandfathers were wont to do. The noble side of science will havecaught up its criminal side. By many kinds of devices now being groped for we shall claw down from the skies the flying miscreant.

But shall we have the time? Never was such a near-run race, and never were the stakes so high. War in the next few years might easily lead to a few wicked men being able to destroy wisdom,culture, tradition, and all the material prosperity we have been able to build. But if there is no war for ten or fifteen years it is my firm conviction that the peril from the skies will be averted,and that the discovery of the art of flying will be inscribed among the great advancements and triumphs of mankind, instead of being its ruin. But are we going to have this ten or fifteen years?

The story of the human race is war. Except for brief and precarious interludes, there has never been peace in the world; and before history began, murderous strife was universal and unending. But up to the present time the means of destruction at the disposal of man have not kept pace with his ferocity. Reciprocal extermination was impossible in the Stone Age. One can not do much with a clumsy club. Besides, men were so scarce and hid so well that they were hard to find. They fled so fast that they were hard to catch. Human legs could only cover a certain distance each day. With the best will in the world to destroy his species, each man was restricted to a very limited area of activity. It was impossible to make any effective progress on these lines. Meanwhile, one had to live and hunt and sleep. Soon the balance the life-forces kept a steady lead over the forces of death, and gradually tribes, villages, and governments were evolved.

The effort at destruction then entered upon a new phase. War became a collective enterprise. Roads were made which facilitated the movement of large numbers of men. Armies were organized. Many improvements in the apparatus of slaughter were devised. In particular the use of metal, and above all steel, for piercing and cutting human flesh, opened out a promising field. Bows and arrows, slings, chariots, horses and elephants lent valuable assistance.

But here again another set of checks began to operate. The governments were not sufficiently secure. The armies were liable to violent internal disagreements. It was extremely difficult to feed large numbers of men once they were concentrated, and consequently the efficiency of the efforts at destruction became fitful and was tremendously hampered by defective organization.Thus again there was a balance on the credit side of life. The world rolled forward, and human society entered upon a vaster and more complex age. It was not until the dawn of the twentieth century of the Christian era that war really began to enter into its kingdom as the potential destroyer of the human race.

Certain sombre facts emerge, solid, inexorable, like the shapes of mountains from drifting mist. It is established that hence forward whole populations will take part in war, all doing their utmost, all subjected to the fury of the enemy. It is established that nations who believe their life is at stake will not be restrained from using any means to secure their existence. It is probable – nay, certain- that among the means which will next time be at their disposal will be agencies and processes of destruction wholesale, unlimited, and perhaps, once launched, uncontrollable.

Mankind has never been in this position before. Without having improved appreciably in virtue or enjoying wiser guidance, it has got into its hands for the first time the tools by which it can unfailingly accomplish its own extermination. That is the point in human destinies to which all the glories and toils of men have at last led them. They would do well to pause and ponder upon their new responsibilities.

Death stands at attention, obedient, expectant, ready to serve,ready to shear away the people en masse; ready, if called on, to pulverize, without hope of repair, what is left of civilization. He awaits only the word of command. He awaits it from a frail, bewildered being, long his victim, now – for one occasion only -his master.

It is evident that where as an equally-contested war under such conditions might work the ruin of the world, and cause an immeasurable diminution of the human race, the possession by one side of some overwhelming scientific advantage would lead to the complete enslavement of the unwary party. Not only are the powers now in the hands of man capable of destroying the life of nations, but for the first time they afford to one group of civilized men the opportunity of reducing their opponents to absolute helplessness.

In barbarous times superior martial virtues – physical strength, courage, skill, discipline – were required to secure such a supremacy; and in the hard evolution of mankind the best and fittest stocks came to the fore. But no such saving guarantee exists today. There is no reason why a base, degenerate, immoral race should not make an enemy far above them inquality the prostrate subject of their caprice or tyranny, simply because they happened to be possessed at a given moment of some new death-dealing or terror-working processand were ruthless in its employment.

The liberties of men are no longer to be guarded by their natural qualities, but by their dodges; and superior virtue and valour may fall an easy prey to the latest diabolical trick.

This is your Uncle!

Well some days in life can be quite cool. On attending the Maternity ward today to see my new niece after finding which side room my sister had been assigned too. I asked if the new arrival was not going to introduce herself, the reply was priceless. “This is your Uncle, he will probably take you up the Mournes and tell you dirty stories!”

Apology but no reply!

So they still haven’t replied to my letter but yet they may be on the road to realising that outside of D4 only very few of us can afford the prices!!
See below.IRFU

PMS

For some time I have been having difficulty coming to an understanding about PMS.

See below the following press release from the Presbyterian Church.

Presbyterian Church Welcomes Chancellor’s Mutual Announcement

Dr Stafford Carson who is leading the Presbyterian Church’s response to the collapse of the Presbyterian Mutual Society has welcomed today’s statement by the Chancellor regarding the PMS.

“Today’s announcement by the Chancellor that £175m of a loan and a further £25m in cash is to be made available by the Treasury as a rescue package for savers in the Presbyterian Mutual Society is to be welcomed and will be a great relief to those involved.

“Until further details are announced it is impossible to know what the exact outcome will be for members of the Society and how much of their money will be returned to them.

“The Church remains particularly concerned for the smaller savers who have been most disadvantaged by the all the implications of administration.

“Hopefully today’s announcement will bring clarity to the discussions of the Ministerial Working Group.

“We urge them now to work without delay towards a just and fair resolution for everyone involved and bring to an end the anxiety and worry suffered by so many.”

So now that you have all read the above, do you think that the government should bail me out when I make a total mess of my finances! That would be only just and fair I guess!!

This financial debacle just makes me wonder if this the sweetener for Northern Ireland, prior to the axe being wielded in the coming weeks to the public sector!

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